What am I BECOMING?

It's been a while since I've blogged at you. These past few months have been...perplexing. Through so many moves across the country coupled with the moves and shifts within my mind, perplexed is the word I would use.

As I reflect on these past few month back in Austin, I realized I allowed myself to become perplexed, stuck and somewhat unhappy. I allowed the overwhelm from a major life change to kind of...steal away the best parts of me. I was still working out, but not giving it my all. I was still making healthy food choices, but not paying attention. My body and stomach were working but my mind and heart did not follow; I wasn't In In It To Win It. I wasn't determined or focused. I was going through the motions and doing just enough to keep my motivation in check. It is better than making the choice to lie on the couch all day eating junk food, but I expect more from myself.

Then it dawned on me, four moths later, just what the difference was between me now and me six months ago. It's what I was feeding my brain. I lacked the personal development piece that I used to love so much; the piece that made me feel like a hungry human with goals, plans and an optimism that I never felt before. I missed my friends: Jen Sincero, Jim Rohn, Eric Thomas- The Hip Hop Preacher, Dale Carnegie, Darren Hardy, Napoleon Hill and others.

Then I thought to myself: well when did I start listening to or reading their books? Ahhhh, yes...when I was actively fitness coaching, bettering myself so I could help others do the same. And where did I begin hearing about all these "Self-Help/Personal Development" gurus? Ahhhh, yes...from my Beachbody team: Dare to Dream Again and all the constant training and online workshops we are privy to.

So, Beachbody. To some it's an offensive company name: "Beachbody? I don't need the added societal pressure to have a beachbody in order to feel happy and beautiful." No. You don't need a beachbody. You are be-you-tiful. But, do you feel healthy? Huge difference there. To some it's a ponzi scheme: "This company is a fraud and they are just using you to make their millions." Well, if anyone believes that, it certainly isn't my job to talk them off that ledge. Skeptics will always be skeptics. To some, like me, it's: "I am doing my best, forgetting the rest, getting happy, getting healthy, having fun and giving all positive things I have to offer to anyone who wants it."

With all that said, I'm back. With a new mindset. With focus and determination. With a guiding hand and heart towards health and fitness. With love for myself and enough to spare if anyone wants in on this journey, because it is a journey. You may backslide, you may falter, you will have cheat meals (trust me), you will have gains and losses. Successful people aren't the ones who never fail, they're the ones who never quit.

All in all, I liked who I was becoming when I had the focus and determination that started the fire just a year ago. Back at it with a vengeance. I've got goals, friends...not dreams.